Today is an incredible day to simply lay out in the sun. It’s what makes me happy. It actually feels just like a morning in Ocean City. There are even seagulls! Ughh..I miss Jersey summers so much. I seriously cannot wait for summer to come. So many people talk about how lame their summer is going to be, but not mine. It is going to be one of the best for sure. However, it will also be stressful if I still have not made up my mind about school.
Until yesterday, I thought I knew for sure that I was going to stay here at SEU. But, yesterday was the first day since I have been back from spring break that I felt homesick again. I know I am always going to miss home because I am so far away and I can’t just go back whenever I wish to. It also drives me crazy to watch things change and not be a part of it. People are growing up, making new friends, doing exciting things, and Im stuck down here watching through facebook. I understand that it is all part of becoming an adult and being mature and blah blah blah. But honestly, I never thought it would be this difficult. I always had an issue with the idea of growing up and getting old..i hate it. My heart still longs to be in that place of little responsibility, immaturity, no worries, and no big decisions. I miss youth group, going on random trips with everyone, and eating dinner with the family. These are some things I will probably never get back or at least they will never be the same.
Of course I look forward to the future in some ways. But, my biggest fear is that the fun will be lost. What would my life be without random dancing? hah who am I kidding, I will never stop dancing.
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